August 28, 2017

Moving + Second Baby

{wrote this on monday august 21st}
it's monday, back at it. it was a whirlwind weekend I felt like but not in a bad way. friday morning Caius and I checked out the forestry farm, went to crave cupcakes for a treat and even hit up the pool in town for 45mins. while it was beautifully sunny and warm. friday night the 3 of us went to folkfest and had such a good time! saturday we worked on things around the house, saturday evening we went to my parents for supper and to hang out. sunday morning we took bubba to kinsmen park and went for lunch. and sunday evening we had family photos done. see, whirlwind weekend but it didn't feel like overwhelming.

{monday august 28th}
this past weekend it was just bubba and I. Neil went to the lake with my dad to play and since sleeping isn't that great for me out there, I stayed back with Caius. friday we picked up our photo session, played at a park and at Flynns Forrest. friday night, neil left and Caius was in bed early due to no nap that day. saturday was jam packed. we watched nana play slo-pitch, went to midtown & to toys r us, stopped for an oil change and I took him to the race track saturday night! he had a blast. lasted about an hour watching the races, then we played at the playground on site, got some mini donuts and headed home. he was up at 5:40am on sunday (so not okay) so we hit up a park in the morning after laying around for 4 hours anxiously waiting for dad to come home. I enjoy spending time with just him but boy oh boy, its even more tiring at 6 months pregnant. 

so at the moment we are preparing our house to list by the end of this week! we are moving back to the city for a few reasons. #1 is we only have a 2 bedroom upstairs. we could have probably made it work with room sharing but Caius was such a crappy, crappy sleeper for so long and I'm worried this next baby will follow in his sleep steps. also, we moved Caius to his crib when he was around 7-8 weeks old? neil and I both "slept" better with him being in a separate room and doing night feedings and everything. so if baby can't bunk with us for long, or Caius.. where are they gonna go?

#2 is we want to be closer to our families. going for family suppers, doing a visit, even grocery shopping and doing things "in the city" is always a trip. it's always 20mins. to get there and 20mins. to get back home and it's just a pain when dealing with sleep schedules and being on a time crunch all the time. I'm looking forward to just going over for a bit in the evenings or when asking for help to babysit, it's not so much of a hassle for them to come to us. it'll be a quick 5min. drive. looking forward to not feeling so "lonely" while on maternity leave with 2 kiddos.

I hope we can find something that we love as it will be our forever house. some wants of mine are an en suite bathroom & walk in closet :) ha, pretty simple and of course there's other things I'd like, but I'd say those two are a main want. being that we're not buying brand new and we're not building, we're flexible if we feel like the space is right for us.

the timing of this is kind of crazy and not the best, but we had to wait until this point to fully make the decision and now we are going to be trying to sell our house, buy a new house and welcome a new baby into the family. I think I'm starting to freak out because of all the unknown time frames. we are planning on baby being delivered at the end of november (if he or she doesn't come early on their own). so where will we be once that baby is here? no idea

being pregnant this time and expecting the arrival of this new baby has a lot of different aspects to it than it was with Caius. I do not and won't have a room set up for baby this time. with Caius, we had a crib built and set up in May? and he was born in October.. I wanted to make Caius' room perfect for before he arrived and I don't get to do that this time. I'm also really struggling with if I want to know the gender or not. all along it was a clear no as we will know the date and time of when this baby will be born. but now, with moving and going to be layed up after a c-section while still being a mom to a toddler freaks me out that I am unprepared. we obviously have a ton of stuff if it's a boy and season wise the clothes will fit just fine, but what if it's a girl? obviously I'll want to go crazy and get all the fun girlie stuff! but how will I do that with all of the circumstances

I know that family will be willing to run out and get whatever we need. but I'm a type a, need to plan & be prepared person who has control so I'm really leaning towards finding out what this baby is. and if we do find out, we won't be telling anyone. just keeping it our little secret. same with the c-section date.

I guess it's just starting to feel more and more real that we have a baby on the way. we have it pretty good with Caius right now and I'm nervous to interrupt that. the lack of sleep and the balancing of being a good mom to Caius and wife to Neil is a lot when I think about it. I don't want to damage the dynamic we have with Caius. and the stress of moving, followed by Christmas just freaks me the hell out. I know it'll all work out and the first 3 months will be our hardest. I'm just very, very nervous for all the unknowns. but excited too.

August 17, 2017

24 Weeks

How Far Along: 24 Weeks & 5 days
Symptoms: tailbone pain & it was confirmed this morning that I have SPD {symphysis pubic dysfunction} which together makes a ton of pain and discomfort. also looks like I have diastasis recti, like I did with Caius. this pregnancy has not been easy whatsoever and I'm only 24 weeks!
Weight: 198lbs.
Maternity Clothes: pretty much all I wear. maxi dresses with a jean jacket at work and or leggings with a t-shirt. comfy and cozy
Belly Button in or Out: in but it's feeling smaller and smaller
Sleep: I sleep okay. I have horrible groin pain when just trying to switch sides. I so badly want to use my bump nest pillow but it's not super comfortable right now. I also get up to pee either a half hour or an hour before our alarm goes off so that interrupts things too
Best Moment This Week: hearing the heartbeat at the ultrasound
Worst Moment This Week: this whole week has kind of been the sh*ts. I've felt off, in pain, grouchy and tired. sleeping makes everything worst. feeling tired, feeling sore.my OB said my uterus is measuring big which could be just how I am while pregnant or gestational diabetes. I'm obviously hoping that's not the case but I'll go for the sugar test soon to find out
Movement: so much movement! starting around 22 weeks, it was all of a sudden bam! feeling baby move. feels like rolls and jabs all the time. I keep trying to get Neil to feel them but he either misses it or can't quite feel them
Queasy or Sick: I was feeling super junky last week, almost nauseous but not quite. don't know if it was pregnancy related or just feeling a bit off
Looking Forward To: family/ maternity/ Caius' 3 year photos being done on Sunday!
Cravings: ice cream or chocolate. usually have to have a fix a few times a week
Recently Purchased: Love to Dream Swaddle Up! Caius was a arms up in the air sleeper and always managed to get out of his regular swaddle. figured I'd give this a try. bought a handful of knotted newborn hats from Jax & Lennon and a couple of sleepers and sleep gowns from Carters



Other: we finally chose our boy name! when we were expecting Caius, we had 1 girl name and 1 boy name when going to the hospital. when Neil called "it's a boy" during my c-section, I knew Caius was here before even seeing him. we wanted to do the same thing this time around but were at odds over the choices. Neil loved Cooper, I loved Daxton and neither of us loved each others choices. I found a name online, sent it to Neil and he said he loved it and I did too! it was such an exciting feeling and almost a relief that we both loved a name and wouldn't have to argue over our first picks in the hospital. our girl name is the same as when I was pregnant with Caius. I'm so excited for either gender as I love both names so much. I may even love the boy name a tad bit more :)

August 8, 2017

Holidays 2017

we had our last batch of holidays before the baby comes in July. we spent a total of 7 nights at the lake with a little break in between at home. we did all the usual lake things plus we snuck to shell lake for a treat of mini golfing, lunch & ice cream. we went swimming to the local pool, watched daddy play slopitch & had a bank appointment to see if we could move. which it looks like we can so we are in the works of getting our house ready to list! that was the longest stretch of nights we've done at the lake and Caius did overall great. right towards the end of our stay, we could tell he was done and ready to be home. we finished our holidays celebrating Olivia's 3rd birthday in the insane heat! auntie lisa sure has luck with hosting birthday parties on the hottest day of the year! we know that next year, lake time will be much different for us with a toddler and baby. we won't be crashing families spaces like we've always done but we hope to get a little trailer for ourselves so that we can still be out there for the weekend and not interrupting anyone's sleep. we really enjoyed our family time together. it's hard getting back into the groove of only seeing him a few hours everyday while being back at work

until next year!